The second Stem Cell Transplant is only days away, therefore I’ve been extremely busy preparing. On Tuesday I received good news, my bone marrow aspiration was clear of leukaemia which I necessary for the transplant to go ahead. It also gives me peace of mind, as I do fear it’ll return even when I feel well, plus if you have to suffer an aspiration you want it to be for good news! On Wednesday I took Aster up to York where she will delve into her Yorkshire roots with my family whilst I’m in hospital. Leaving her was heartbreaking, she has been my constant companion for the last few months and at times the motivation to get out of bed, needless to say I feel a little lost without her. Khan also missed her and he senses something is ‘up’ as he’s been extremely clingy so I am on a big guilt trip at the moment. Wednesday also brought the news that Dylan is fighting fit so the transplant is going ahead as proposed. Friday, I had a PICC line inserted so the nurses can take blood, administer drugs etc. As with all procedures I was a nervous wreck and I can’t say I’m too comfortable with tubes coming out of me, thankfully it’s for a short period this time.
My collection of programmes to watch has been topped up with Breaking Bad, Spirals, Dallas and Penny Dreadful. Naturally, my kindle is fully loaded with possible novels to pass the time away. I decided it would be a good idea to ensure my iPhone was busting with tunes especially as it might encourage engraftment if Tom Jones was crooning away to welcome Dylan’s stem cells into my blood stream, on Day 0. (It’s between It’s Not Unusual or Help Yourself, I’m not sure I am ready for listening to Green, Green Grass of Home on repeat, just yet)I’m practically packed; I just need to put the entertainment and beauty / body stuff in the bag.
Naturally, I’m both keen and nervous to embark on another SCT. A SCT is my best chance of a leukaemia free life that said the procedure isn’t without its risks which I am very aware of, thanks to have already heard and seen it all before. The PICC line insertion was a big concern for me, with that behind me I feel a little less apprehensive about what I will endure over the next three / four weeks. I just keep thinking about life post the transplant, July / August time when I should be in a position to approach life with a less bubble warp mentality and boy do I intend to enjoy what life has to offer!
Monday morning I had a 9 a.m. meeting in the Westminster area.
- 7.15 a.m. – drop Aster off at the dog minders
- 7.41 a.m. – on train to London (managed to get a seat but did get an elbow or two en route)
- 8.05 a.m. – change train and take the tube
- 8.25 a.m. – change tube lines (stood most of the way)
- 8.43 a.m. – get off at Westminster
- 8.46 a.m. – admire the House of Commons
- 8.47 a.m. – epiphany moment (O2 rush from the march to the office)
- 8.55 a.m. – arrive at meeting venue
Seconds after my routine moment of admiring the magnificent House of Commons, I thought to myself ‘this is not how life is supposed to be lived’. What I am referring to is the fact that travelling to and from work on Monday consumed the best part of 3 ½ hours of my day. Had Brad Pitt been escorting me, had I travelled in a limo whilst receiving a foot massage then maybe I’d think it was acceptable to spend that amount of time traveling daily to work. Prior to being ill, I routinely made that journey or similar and I rarely questioned how ludicrous it was. I can only assume I had become accustomed to the entire trip, from the commuters who’d step on their Grandmother in order to get a seat, to the fact you see the same people daily and yet never say even smile at to each other. I don’t have any answers, as yet, as to how I reduce my commute when I eventually return to work full time but I am steadfast in my conviction that I will not fall into the trap of travelling such long hours to and from work. Time is precious; after all once you’ve lost it you can never get it back.
Speaking of time it’s time to finish packing and cuddle Khan before my busy week of chemo.
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